It’s been some time since my last blog post. . . but in that time a lot has happened. As I thought about how much time it had been since writing I initially felt bad, thinking, “Wow I’ve just disregarded this for X amount of time…” and then I stopped and said, “But life happened.”
Since my last post, I’ve taken more initiative to grow my passion for art- currently working on a 15 canvas order and another in the works. I’ve seen my diligent running efforts take fruit in the form of a 10 minute drop in time as I returned to run a race that last year I thought I couldn’t do again. I’ve felt a sense of pride, busting my butt late every night studying GRE concepts and practice problems tirelessly to get the score I needed for grad school. . . life has just been happening and it was only when i took a moment to think about it this morning, that I realized the power of it.
I get so caught up in the day to day, that it’s only after several months pass and I look back on them, that I feel the amazement of “life”. Time makes you feel like you’re stuck in neutral often, like it’s the slow as molasses process, but when you look back and hyper speed through – it’s a pretty amazing thing.
Some days I definitely struggle with a sense of direction, feeling as if I’m not sure what I’m really doing- but when I see it from the larger perspective that is “life”, I feel stability and happiness. I see my growth, tenacity, and fullness, all things that matter so much to me in these young adult years. I feel so much pride for the steps I’ve taken and the direction I’ve put myself in- it makes what once seemed far away feel very close.Loan payments aren’t as scary, grad school feels more within my reach, my art gives me a sense of empowerment, and I’ve run through feats I never believed were possible.
So life has happened, and for those of you that were enjoying the chapters- I’m sorry my story was at such a stand-still- but then again it wasn’t. It’s always been writing and editing and changing, and I’ve finally written my story into a place of true satisfaction. I hope all of you are working to do the same and life is happening for you as well. Take time to see all your accomplishments and moments of pride- they delineate the rough patches and allow the seed of hope to continue growing for tomorrow.
|| Cheers everyone ||